Shagua

Currently at shagua jia.

That fella don't let me sleep on the bed =\\ aku sangat sleepy wei.

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3pm +
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8pm +

The feeling of blasting the songs.
Alright, I admit it's not good.

Compare with singing in a band , this is quite a different experience.
First time, I played the song with a high volume.
First time, I care no one around , sing out loud and express my feeling.
The song keep repeating.

I rmb those time when I am still with you,
I loved band songs and those hardstyle songs.

I didn't know how tired I am,
because of my sickness , I was feel like half dying during the daytime until I back home and shout out loud.

You know that when I said "nothing" , there's something.
You know that when I said " whatever " , i am fed up.
You know that when I said " nvm " , I am escaping.
But you are so far from me since last time until now.
It is just my feeling to want you be around when I am down.

Trying to understand everything that is happening.
Well , there's no answer.
Maybe I shouldn't be so "hyper" over all these.
I should just keep quiet and care no shit.
But what will you do , when you finally found your soul ? And there's someone in a part of your life? Even just 10 percent , it consider as a very high percentage.

So if I want you to be my listener , will you put more attention on me?
haha , nvm , I already know the answer.
I wonder why there's a Baby N ? And I totally forget it after the incident.

I am fatigue.

Realized that I weren't as strong as you. Maybe its kind of way that call escape?
I ever wrote a post about I am snivel , who only know weeping.
Maybe one rather do something alone would be always better.
Maybe it is kind of escaping , but still it's better? to be in your own world.
So now I understand. What made you fall into these all.

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I couldn't tell you Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
I couldn't help her
I just watched her made the same mistakes again.

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