Tough

Move On.
部落格有着那么好的名称

...

可却看不见自己能怎么Move On.
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凌晨 4.30
没有要睡觉的念头`

功课
动也不想动

要怎么Move On?

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I fall.
Hurt badly.
And I told myself to move on.
And I start my journal here.

I can't get my feet step forward anymore..

Failure, ashame..
time management
respect

There's lot to deal with in this life.
I can see people helping me when i'm in trouble
and people step aside to get rid of problem.

I'm surprise by a sentence from a classmate of mine.
" Do not afraid to try. Be courageous. Trust yourself you can do it "
That did calm me a little when I was about to weep...

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Stucking here at 4.30
I feel like touching my homework

Meanwhile

I just feel like crying out loud for all those awkward works.

Can you imagine someone don't draw
and have to learn all this stuff and catch up
with just a little time like this?
And I am wasting it.

颓废

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Somehow I like my project Lecturer,
who did really give support, and good advice,
sometimes, good direction...

On the other side,
I just don't really like much about the new lecturer
he made me upset.
And feel more terrible on my works.

Thanks for helping.
I appreciated it.
Maybe just I don't accept the fact , i am sucks.

Or it just the real me feeling the real world.
I hate being pointed out, that someone see through me
and caught anything I'd did wrong.

...

Numb.

好"瞎“

Art n design
让我看透了很多事情
让我学习到很多不同的学习方式
让我解除了这世界各地的每一小部分
也让我明白了许多学习态度

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也因为这样
无法用言语形容我的知识之下

我只能用有偏见的眼光
我只能说有太多人对待事情太主观
很直接说出了眼见的事情

可是
很多事情背后
有他的故事
...

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历史
是多么神圣的科目

...

历史
是多么特别的科目

...

历史
是你现在所有的所有的来源

....

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有时候
身边很多人
都很“瞎”

笨

有时候

我笨得以为
这世界
只要妥协
还是会有人好心对待

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不好意思
妥协
只不过是逃过现实的遮眼法
只不过是比人家懦弱

...

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不想再分享
不想说话
不想理你们

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杨丽绮
你要加油!

你要站起来！

崩溃去

感觉被这世界逼得很紧
赶不上步伐

那所谓梦幻的人生
只不过是浪费时间

没有那个时间享受
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别对我这样
我讨厌面对你们那自私的态度
`

也许哪一天
我疯了...

class rep 辞去
宁愿
自闭

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临崩溃边缘
我不想说话...

how could i, stand

I guess what could really wake me up
is when someone really give me a big whack, or just let me fall.

I am so sick of myself.
for some while...being like this.
irresponsible, hot-tempered, impatient and all kind of stuff.

Sometimes i wonder am I just a burden for people around me?
Cause i felt like giving trouble is the only thing I had done.
contribution? It's not my stuff anymore.

Charity?
I can't even stand up for myself.
How could my future build up...
and even go for an event like charity
giving helps.

If life gets better in future,
tell me.
Tell me at least one more step I'm gonna take
would changes everything.

no more troubles,
but giving a hand to others.

Maybe, at least flipping through some books would be better
listening to songs and reading novels, fiction.


how could I stand.
How could I make it
to be stronger
or more clear on what am i suppose to do.


Or maybe,
the cruel stuff ever
someone you loved that leave you.


Cut those craps
I am always inferior on a side
...


Saying " I  need some time " is bullshit.
Cause I have it all enough right now..
because i didn't fill it with great things in life.

Clear.Clear.Clear.

I detected virus in me.
now I scanned it.
But how can i fix it.