Bye September

Bye Bye September!

WAIT

I don't wanna say bbye =\

这一个月经历太多了
D:
也不是太太太多啦
就看懂了很多事情

:______:

我爱我的朋友们
谢谢帮我庆祝生日

我爱这片天空
我爱拍照
我爱九月!

别离开 =\
别离开
..

SPM 要到了

wuuu

Wake me up when September ends.
That's what they all talk about. Using this song name.
If If September never ends =\
I don't wanna wake up

How terrible am I - A fall

How Terrible

I don't know how terrible am I.

but not as terrible as those people who don't appreciate and never say 'thank you'.
Well, yea I read 3 chapters of The Book of Tomorrow.
That's what on my mind now. Rich people has their way of living, their way of speaking, thinking, and even the worst part - acting.

I don't know how terrible am I.
Reading the beginning of the story, I felt I am living a life full of happiness which I never really realise what was it.
Is not like I am going to realise until someone just left me, someone important in my life left me.
No. I need to stand up.

I don't know how terrible am I.
The point is.
I feel like sticking a note on my door writing " Do not OPEN the door "
or else
" Do not disturb , I need some air " - locking self in a room do not have air -.-
.. or like this
" Sorry I shut the door and the key is with me, Do no TRY to dash inside or kick the door. Put the shirts outside I'll do the laundry.. "

I don't know how terrible am I
Well well, my point is.
Leave.Me.Alone.

This is how terrible I felt I am now.
Confine myself in my room. Maybe 'confine' is not a nice word to describe.

Friends told me this.
" Do you ever think that you're actually keeping a distance with everyone? Like you never want to walk our from a box. You don't wanna try or accept the facts and the reality coming to you. " - what's the suitable word? start with an "I" vowel.

I don't want to eat dinner, I don't feel like having it.
I am terrible.
Seriously I want to say this to myself, fuck my life.

Someone just give me a big fall.
falling from a cliff would be good , but i dun wanna be Bella and expecting Edward would come back. No.
I just a need a fall. Hell ya, Love is not a thing for me now.

but how about Love of God?
I need to go church.

FML

ISOLATION - that's the word.

for now I don't think crying is a way.
it's lame
it's stupid

a fall.

Either you could say I am lazy
or I am just not the type of explaining.
Well I just don't like to explain

For now.
I hate answering.
I hate explaining.

Deep down inside of me , inferiority is growing.
Subconsciously , I wanna fight with it.
Superficially , I am just like what I am now. An emo freak.

People would fed up with this.
So do I.
You see, how terrible am I.

Always
favorite sad song ever

今年
我嘗試過沒有原因的壓抑感
兩次

第二次
我記得
握著你的手那瞬間
我釋放了自己的淚

這一次
不像是壓抑
但我知道我欠的
就是大哭一場

連考試
也會像上一次一樣

但這次我把自己缩起來
想放聲地哭
但抱歉

我做不到

If . Down & Up

Hey
How's life going?

" down and up "

What makes the most of it?
up or down?

"down"

Do you wanna tell me about it?
Cause I have a problem and I think I got myself into shyt

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aaa

If .

If .

If .

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If the truth isn't the truth.
If I can bear the truth
If I can runaway from the truth.

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When was the last time you cry?

" I can't rmb "
" Does tear fall down count as crying? "

yea

" But I ain't crying, I was just singing the korean song - simply singing it. And I got no idea what I was singing D: "

I'll make you cry next time.

"No! GO AWAY "


But if you can, please do It. I would like to cry out loud.

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Try this
Take a blank paper,
Think of this question
" What is your purpose of Life "
Write any answer, don't have to be a full sentence.
Any will do.
Then repeat the step ,
think the answer until you cry.

LOL
( I don't wanna try this ) ( I hardly cry )
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Have you found ur passion in your life?

" passion in life? Nah.. "

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INSOMNIA

Aw D:
Still very hungry, my Oat Krunch didn't cure my hungry-ness that much.

lala no doubt.
Books -.- reference~

notes pad. D:


Having Insomnia,
seriously didn't sleep for the whole day.
But am just lucky cause my brain still rest while I close my eyes`
=\

For the moment
I hate you

you made me feel that way

end

END

I feel like crying

Day with Adam

updates

http://im-chee.blogspot.com/2010/09/happy-mooncake-festival.html
http://im-chee.blogspot.com/2010/09/fail.html


Sunday 19 of Sept


While waiting for Adam to come,
I saw this..and went to watch for awhile.

Advertisement - The legend of Fist ChenZhen

Some people holding this mask
LOL

Went to Sushi king for lunch. Well not nice for me =x
prefer sakae sushi loh


Went to the new mall Fahrenheit. Opposite Pav

lol it's slipper xD
keyboard

the mall

bags aaaaa

movie - growns up
Free ticket eh :D
Cause birthday reward

He sticked my Zhong2 on his coke -.-

watch movie =]

somehow I like this
inside the cinema

Thank you Adam
He got me this (:

Went to grandma's house for Mooncake Festival dinner.
Oops end up i eat alone cause i was late =\
Have some chat with cousin. (:


back home prepare for school.
eeee
Last holiday of high school ! END

Happy Mooncake Festival

Happy Mooncake festival x3

a shapo text me 'what you doing'

I was like o.o ? She never ask like this.
Aduh` I thought what.. she actually reach my house. -.-

ChauChau here (:
He keep playing with Zhongzhong once he reach my house -.-

first candle that lighted up (:

L.A.O.P.O
dedicated to my laopo

Fei's hasilan.
He said wanna play some 'chong yi' wor`
there ... 45degree MJ slant` end up is 15degree?

FAILED

picture failed

oops
another failed
but the word seem quite nice :)
credit by SY

hasilan by Fei

working hard for Mickey Mao XD

Finish (:

ceremony? xD

picture of the day! Woops! love it

emo lai

cheeseee :)

ChauChau is kiddo !

heh

That's the day =P

十五岁的自己

知道吗我总是惦记 十五岁不快乐的妳
我多想 把哭泣的妳 搂进我怀里
不确定自己的形状 动不动就和世界碰撞
那些伤 我终于为妳 都一一抚平
那一年最难的习题 也不过短短的几行笔记
现在我却总爱回忆 回忆当时不服输的你
天空 会不会雨停 会不会放晴
会不会幸福在终点等着我和你
会不会是我忘记 还能勇敢地去淋雨
我们继续走下去 继续往前进
继续走向期待中的未知旅行
感觉累了的时候 抱着我们的真心
静静好好地休息
这些年我还算可以 至少都对得起自己
谢谢妳 是妳的单纯 给了我指引
遇见过很多很多人 完成了一些些事情
妳一定 还无法想象 多精彩过瘾
谁说人生是公平的 它才不管我们想要怎样
很感激 妳那么倔强 我才能变成今天这样
我们继续走下去 继续往前进
看这条路肯让我们走到哪里
我们想去的地方 一定也有人很想去
我们都不要放弃 都别说灰心
永远听从刻在心中那些声音
感觉累了的时候 请妳把我的手握紧
没有地图 人生只能凭着手上的梦想 Oh~
循着它的光 曲折转弯找到有光的地方
Lalala Lalala Lalala 那年的梦想
Lalala Lalala Lalala 人要有梦想 勇敢的梦想 疯狂的梦想
继续走下去 继续往前进
路旁有花心中有歌天上有星
我们要去的那里 一定有最美丽的风景
Oh~ 都不要放弃 都别说灰心
不要辜负心里那个干净的自己
痛到想哭的时候 就让泪水洗掉委屈
我们要相信自己 永远都相信
来到这个世界不是没有意义
我们做过的事情 都会留在人心里
会被回忆而珍惜
有一天我将会老去 希望妳会觉得满意
我没有 对不起那个 十五岁的自己

addicted to the Japanese version

恐惧

是我有问题
还是有假期是问题？
不明白？

Nevermind.

当我背着书包，一步一步地走着
没有音乐，没有节奏`
只有轻快的脚步声

已经走过上百次的路
突然觉得恐惧
突然害怕起来

熟悉的路段
常常从LRT走回家
从家里走去LRT

走到一半
突然有一种恐惧感
害怕
想立刻跑回家

发现恐惧越来越多
甚至连作梦
起身时
在外面时
多人的地方
...

开始不喜欢把脚放下
坐在椅子上，都必须交叉双脚坐着
是的，很不雅观
但我觉得有安全感


那天
我突然发现
肩膀让我有安全感
背部让我有安全感
真白痴

FAIL

say hi to my dog.

: irritating :
the only word to describe xD

It's rainy day in the morning of 10am

Took Undang test

FAIL


on the way back
bring along my music theory book so that can study

Italian/german terms - can't rmb

Went for McD after the test.
Didn't capture picture of Cheesy fried again! D:

took bus back

still the sky seem dark

capture this`
The same road walk back home,
everytime i will see this.

-WSY-

Before tuition
the dog ...
scratches

I saw this on Jere's car.
then I snap it x3
but there's flash! I am so sorry to his mom who is driving :x

Guitar :D

sampat x3
Vicky jie said she like Zhong2 w/o the cap

present from Normie
lame chicken

to friends (:

God Bless You

我记得酒席时我到现场与亲戚见面的那一刻

我姑姑抱着我
抱得很紧
就说了一句，重复了几次

[ GOD BLESS YOU ]

McD , Swim , Wedding Dinner

:D
Went to McD with J this afternoon.


too bad no picture for
TRIPLE cheeseburger !
and McShaker Fries ` ! ShakeyShakieee D:
Nice to eat weih.

Got an invitation to swim b4 I go back home.
After a moment, pack and go swim. Weeee =]


Since I got nothing to do, i start to take pictures

the weather isn't good.

Dia so rajin baca :x

this picture actually very nice for me :x

Reach the place (:

I do need this! D:
So you can imagine why I need that

Nah, this wasn't an emo picture

After swimming part , went back home (:
Bath and prepare for wedding dinner`

DingDing DongDong`
I am regretted for not bringing my camera =\
I met my cousins, and aunties .. So happy we hug each other.
I think this Sunday would be another reunion day - Mooncake Festival.
Siapa nak datang chou re nao? (: ( you you xD )

Then my mom saw her biaoooo jieeee.
And I saw this auntie is Shanshan's cousin.
Well well.. So then.

I got a new cousin today :D
So close yet so far and yet so near!!

That's why, I can proof you Shan! The picture I had with you Auntie / my biao yi. LOLOL

LOL

What the ??



Friend ----> cousin