我需要改變

我是一個悲觀者，那不是我想要的。
但確實是，我也覺得自己很悲觀。

當身邊所有人都不信任你
當你的老師不信任你，當你的家人不信任你，當你的朋友不信任你。



Jack Dixon 說 - If you focus on results, you will never change. If you focus on change, you will get results.
John C.Maxwell 說 -To change your life, you need to change your priorities.


如果我再用以前求學時期的那種態度做事情，
那我就一定是失敗，失敗，和失敗。

我說過，我是個悲觀者，但那不是我想要的。
但事實是，連我也覺得自己很悲觀。

现实；梦想

现实就是
...

当你没有对生活附上适当的责任
你就必须背起后果

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现实就是
...

前辈给过的话，总有些是对的。
『要达到梦想，就得先把梦想搁一边；有钱，才有梦想』

是的。 很现实。
钱，可以夺走你的梦想；钱，可以帮你达到梦想。

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不用气馁
唯有靠自己，才能达到梦想。

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我不会沟通，我人缘不好...

如果现实就是，妳的一句『不』 ， 就把梦想的台阶给打垮，
那抱歉，我不放弃。


* 我知道你们家长有压力。 抱歉让你们失望了..
我对自己的生活太不负责任...

很抱歉，我不是你们理想中的女儿。
我是我自己.

珍惜；你

珍惜

有很多方法

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会不会
像上次那样
只是去两天的旅行
却依依不舍的样子

而这次
没能联络任何人
电话只是听歌的用途

暂时
去散心了

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回来后

我要一个人去看电影
.

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当靠近的时候
就是

不会想要的那个『自己』
努力摆脱的『自己』

而我

爱你

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如果可以

我爱你
对不起
没关系

不出现
好吗？

思緒。

抓不緊的
就得放手

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沒有想努力的動機，
朋友們漸漸地為自己的生活奔忙。

不想那麼快讀書，
原因連自己也不知道，只因當初計劃好而實行。

有個念頭趕快讀書，
只為換一個新環境。

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真的是一個人的時候
就一個人。

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夜豬
生日快樂

真想衝上你家 =\

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夢見的星星好不真實
虛弱地在閃爍
就不能更明確點嗎

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沒有人會為你而活
只為了自己更好過而活

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出去走走吧.

钱 ! 忙 !

爸妈就想着怎么赚更多的钱
弟弟就想要得到更好的生活品质- 他叛逆的生活方式- 摩托车一辆，价; 6k.
而我就想着如何在短时期内赚更多的钱，帮补家里。
是的，很天真。

天真的是，
没有6k 就不要要求买那么贵的摩托车，而且，钱真的很难赚。
天真的是，
我真的认为短期内能赚更多的钱。 啊，这个月的花费超越了... 现在我是穷光蛋。

如果世界快要末日，
那我要5k绑牙的念头可以取消。
那一笔钱，有太多用处...
别国的孩子连吃都没有得吃，而我就想花钱在如何让自己吃得更得体舒服。
我们幸运的孩子，应该感到惭愧。
这世界有太多不幸的孩子们了...

钱。
他们都说别看得太重。
是的，别看得太重不一定是有钱不赚。
有些人的太重，定义在于，一分一毫都不用... 或者，有手段地去赚那笔钱。
有些人的太重，定义在于，赚了以后，懂得如何用那笔钱，帮助有需要的人... 而不是自己收着。
难听的有人说，带着进棺材。


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也不抱怨说累
明天到星期六，工作量双倍提高。
office放工，就到妈妈的工作地方当兼职。
星期六，whole day.
算过了， 一天，大概 13-15小时的工作量。
然后，休息就是，往泰国奔去~ :D

没办法，两个星期没有好好休息。
六日都直往外跑，这里去那里去。

由于明天开始工作量增加几天，没有时间洗衣服。
现在很累的我，必须去洗衣服，不然泰国我穿什么？ O.O
hahaha 发傻。
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雨影啊，
我又爱上你了 (=


失去笑容的『第九天』

A day in Sunway Lagoon !

Aa How blur ! and ugly D:
Well. The point is the painting on my neck.. teehee~
People draw on face, mine draw on neck.

A day with Wypan and friends`
It's free to Sunway Lagoon !
Because of one guy needing of 刺激感, we played almost all the games.
Water park and theme park. Except the extreme park , cause need to pay.

Wake up at 7.30am and get ready.
Some of them only slept 2 or 3 hours.
Too bad there's no photos because we put all our belongings into the locker.
Not even 1 cent with us. hahaha

I scared of all those slide D:
But it's really fun though... There's one time I sit on the back, guy in front of me is heavier than me. So I was like flying in the sky and keep sliding down ..

After the water park, we went to theme park, first is the spinning cup.
Ah ! Spinning cup! Remind of Genting.. that I pening kepala after that. =\
But it's lucky cause this time no one want to spin the cup but want to stop it from spinning around.

While the guys playing coaster~ There's this girl Bell and I sitting on the ferris wheel and say hi to them who is already on the ride. xD
The funniest part is, Bell and I only would want to ride the kids coaster.
We sit on there for 2 times, means 4 round. And the employee was very happy to serve us. LOL

There's another 2 rides in theme park which made us wet.
D: So the guys were so pity cause already dried up after walking around and see animals.. but then wet again. awwwwwwwww~

Had seen how a peacock attracted female~ Bear poo! into the water =.=
someone said " omg, poo into the water they drink. "
" What? I don't think so "
" you see, there's no more water inside.. there's the only water source ! Aww "

Hairless rat , hairless guinea pig ! D:

Then we fed rabbits and deer~ So cuteeeee those rabbit !!! :D

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After all the fun` some of us took a shower there, some went back home`
Next we head to PWTC , the matta fair.
Before that we ate at the mamak , I didn't. haha
I order milo.
" Milo panas , kurang ais " LOLOLOL What's wrong with me?
" aaa kurang manis " ..
Ben : " just order milo kosong la " .. LOL

Was so tired... when reach home. Done the laundry.. then hit the sack. HA

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Didn't get to rest that much. Aaaaa
Didn't go to college! D:
Then ! This Sunday I'm going oversea..
Craps. Saturday working for part time.

...... What am I doing with my life huh ?

I am Bored

Ahhh`
I am too bored until I come here and write a post.

Ish` Besides writing I have no idea what to do.
Life is such a messs........

Sleeping at a wrong time and wake at the wrong time.
My mind wasn't going right at all.
It's like everything gone so wrong !!!

5th Day ; You made me unbeautiful.

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Had a great time spending with Jon wu, Lyvier Dungu , and Samuel Lam. =]
Have a peek at Taylor school and met Charmaine there for a small celebration. (:
Happy Birthday Girl!.

Aw ! Now I know how's college life is like.
It's Ew. And I rather to have autistic == instead.
As an Asian girl , I know I am just way toooooo prudently.
Sigh.

It's like no one there telling me what to do.
But giving me information of the reality of this world.

Somehow those " pain , my heart is breaking , it's hard to put down , lifeless " , all this bullshit sentence are useless.

No one cares a shit for how you felt and how you gone through your life.
That's all.

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Chee : I can't wait for college ! Cause I don't want to be autistic and I wanna have a great time with my future college friends` Be not myself anymore * , threw up all the shits thing. HA

Conclusion - I'm crazy right now cause I don't know what's up with my mind.

I AM BORED