I wonder if you read
or you don't even remember i have a blog
or you don't care at all.

I apologise for all my assumption on you.
And all the Illusion I have on my own, and then blame it on you.

But I am just expecting to have more you put on others, that you will put on me.
That's all.

Is fine, u say we see each other like all day long
and is really a less min u spend with other.
Then i screw thing up by a sentence u talk to other and argument comes up blababla.

It doesn't matter how long you spend with one person
or one minute you spent with the person.
It matter is how you communicate with the person even just for a second, a minute, an hour.

Things screw up.

The 4 months break.
I wish us goodluck.
Cause I will try to care not shit about approaching you anymore.
Cause I live on my own, my pride, my selfishness.

I don't know if you notice
is like you don't see things as a matter.


the only way to make myself feel better
is not to think about it
cause when it hurt
there will be only tears.

be strong

be bold

things apart

just let it go

The Truth. You and Me

One more truth to know.
One more.

Whether all of this fall apart because of a misunderstanding.

I had a dream
A dream of you and me.

You were surprise to see me
I forgive our past, and embrace you.

That sound so not right in real.
Is weird.

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People comes and go
they stay in your life for a period time
and somehow affect you a little.

When they walk away
either their obligation is accomplished
or you no longer need them like you did before.

I can't really feel anything special when I look at your picture
until
I had this dream. You and Me.

I don't know who you are officially.
Not to say really know your personality.

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I wonder if you still need one more friend in your future?

or I should step away. Keep what is it now.

the more I think.
I think I just don't have the courage.
And I still don't know how would you think of me, again.

Is a misunderstand. Maybe it is a misunderstanding issue.

I just defending for myself, of how I felt innocent of what happen at the moment when everything shattered.
That I was confuse of what you said.

Those words.
If you still remember what you said.
I wonder why.

I apologise If I did something wrong hurt you and your friend
or even not to take care of myself.

But everyone has a life to go with.  And I am fine here.
I be more aware than before.

And thank you for being somewhere with me.
Still caring for me.

健康报告

只是普通的一个小测验
血和尿

却心里一直担心着
...

明天就是拿报告的时候了
没有接到诊所的电话
像是把自己的担心都稍微化解了

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到哪儿
最近都被“癌症”给下了咒语

刚看了 Now is Good
虽然没有深深的解释患癌症的痛苦
可是看到了很多患病的人不能做到事情

"They thought being sick being braver but it is not. It never is"

当没有身在其中
是不能了解他们的痛苦
只能祈祷他们有更大的勇气

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好一个绑牙
也许就是绑牙后
开始很多东西都不敢吃

绑牙前，很多煎炸食物都开始不吃了
那是对自己健康的承诺 *xcept McD fries xD

绑牙后，开始什么都想吃
甚至狂吃
却什么都不敢吃

几乎每隔几小时就像把什么都塞嘴巴
然后就是常常买一些不健康的粮食
放在房间里

=O

除了血糖低
明天，其他都有答案

你沒有錯 錯在我要的太多　朋友勸我 不要傻過了頭 

被你愛過瘋過忘過的我 到底算什麼　

自作自受 幫你找藉口 成全兩個人的自由 

你和我～

每个人都不一样
当把爱情分得太清楚
就只剩下你是你
我是我

我要的温柔
得不到

你要的体谅
盼不到

期望不一样
观点不一样
想法不一样
感觉不一样

那爱情
还算爱情吗

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晚安

情歌

回想过去的曾.. 曾经
那些还在不懂事的时光
认识的你们

刻苦铭心的友谊
不留痕迹的爱情

大家现在约出来依然能
像以往的熟悉度
自在的把以前抛在脑后不再提
轻快聊起来

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今晚的杰伦情歌
丞琳的伤心情歌

我惦记着谁
抓摸不定的心情
像回到过去
沉入伤心的歌曲里
平静地
把一切往肚子里吞去